I want to stop and thank you Jesus! How sweet it is to be loved by you!!!
How sweet it is to be loved by you!
May we take a moment to bask in this gloriousness and give God the highest praise of praise for the love of Jesus!! His love is divine and perfect and fills my heart so!
I can’t even write this because all I want to do is dance and praise you!!
So my dear readers, I’ll try and keep it short and ever so sweet.
Over the last few years, I have struggled – like I’m talking the last 11 years I have struggled with self confidence in who I am. My inside never seemed to match my outside… Or I never liked my looks – or my outside never matched my inside. I don’t know which way it truely went but I never thought of myself to be beautiful and I never believed I was on the inside either. Let’s just say, this stemmed from life and being rejected and hurt by life and failed, toxic relationships. Perhaps I placed too much emphasis on the need to be validated and loved externally. I was looking in all the wrong places because I didn’t know better and consequently the girl I once was was crushed by life. Thus crushing my self confidence, self worth and value. It meant I didn’t see myself how others saw or see me or even how God sees me. That was definitely something I struggled with…
To say the least, God has been doing a heart work on me and without me truly knowing until I saw it. About two weeks ago, it was my birthday and I noticed a shift. I actually felt different, more content and grateful in reaching another year. This contentment followed me throughout the day and it was the best birthday I had – not based on the things I did but it came from my heart posture of being content and focused on God.
Then this week, I did my hair and makeup and I had been listening to a song on surrendering my heart to God. (I’ll post it – it’s a beauty.) I took a photo and I was blown away by the woman I saw in the photo. It was me but I’d never seen myself as I did in that picture before. For what I felt on the inside was shining outward. They matched. I looked at this woman who was not the girl she used to be and I felt so much love towards the women I had become and will continue to grow into. I’d never felt or experienced that level of contentment before… And all I can say, is that shift came from God because I didn’t come to that on my own… His love and truth transformed my heart- to knowing I am loved, I am valued and treasured by God. The woman I saw, was how God sees me – the fearfully and wonderfully created being he had intended to create. For the first time, I saw it and I believed it – not in a conceited or proud kind of way – but in truthful and gentle kind of way. It was as though God replaced my eyes with Jesus’s eyes, so I could see how he sees me… Like I said, this level of transformation or heart shift can only come from the grace and love of God.
I say this and share this to say, Jesus love you and sees your beauty too – whether man or woman – he sees your beauty and perfection… And maybe, you don’t believe it right now – but like me, there will come a day when you will. I pray God may heal your heart, transformation your heart and open your eyes to the wonderful human you are. I acknowledge and am sorry for whatever pain or things you have endured in this life that have changed the perception of yourself – but the truth is you are loved, valued and so treasured and created with great purpose to love. But first, we must properly love ourselves and see ourselves as God does – so we can see and treat others with love. I pray your heart’s and minds may be transformed into love. In Jesus’ name I pray, amen. Amen.
In parting, I say, thank you Jesus for loving me – thank you for being there when I needed someone. Your love is great and pure and I thank you for loving me.
“Create in me a clean heart, O God and renew a right spirit within…” (Psalm 51:10 ESV)
Wherever you are in the world have a wonderful day, morning or evening. Much love to you from me. Xx